Category: Daily Quiet

  • Slow Extraction

    The truth about broadcasting your healing through writing.

    Yesterday, I wrote about the past.
    Each layer of emotional clothing I strip off feels more vulnerable than the last.

    Writing for the public—unlike my private journal—is the opposite of strength training.
    With lifting, the weight stays the same.
    It’s your muscles that grow.
    They adapt.
    They harden.

    But with writing, especially your own truths,
    your courage may grow—
    but so do the emotional stakes.

    Each day, I find another buried trauma
    in the graveyard of my emotional landscape.
    The ghosts rise in the wind and whisper,
    “Are you ready to be honest today?”

    Weights don’t ask you that.
    If you’re not ready to advance,
    you can lift the same bar again.
    You still get to call it progress.

    But here?
    Progress only means one thing:
    digging deeper.

  • The Way You Look at Me:  The Unsaid Power of Deep Eye Contact

    The Way You Look at Me: The Unsaid Power of Deep Eye Contact

    The Way You Look at Me: The Power of Deep Eye Contact Admitted.

    It’s strange to find a new love language at 37, right?

    It’s not just any stare though.

    It’s the emotional presence in relationships.

    Wool Socks, Coffee, and Forever: Real Love

    It’s not the kind you toss out of habit.
    It’s not the polite kind.
    The kind that lingers—on purpose.

    The kind that says:
    You still matter here.
    You’re beautiful.
    I see you—and I want to.

    And here’s the part I never expected:
    I’m still discovering what makes me feel pursued.
    I used to think I had it figured out.
    But this?
    This depth—this presence—this quiet, focused gaze…
    It reaches me in ways nothing else has.

    It makes me feel feminine, grounded, and emotionally known.
    It builds intimacy without a single word.

    I told him—softly, but clearly:
    “I need you to look me in the eyes. Deep.”

    Not to solve anything.
    Not to explain.
    But to hold space.
    To remind me that home is still here—and I’m not invisible in it.

    (Click the word home to read more about that.)

    Turns out, connection doesn’t always sound like a conversation.
    Sometimes, it looks like stillness.

    A moment of a man’s undivided attention.
    Sometimes, it’s the way he looks at me—and doesn’t look away.

    I am glad Robert is adaptable.

  • Daily Quiet: Jonah Learns to Ride His Bike

    June 5, 2025

    Daily Quiet


    Jonah Learns to Ride His Bike

    You’re earning the crown.
    With every push of the pedal,
    you’re learning to balance—and push through.

    The bike is patient.
    It moves at your pace,
    but it won’t balance for you.
    That’s where practice becomes mastery.

    It’s okay. We’re all learning to balance.
    Our checkbooks.
    Our time.
    Our eating.
    The list goes on.

    Don’t rush, sweet boy.
    The moment you master one thing,
    life hands you something new.

    I used to hold the handlebars.
    Today, I only held the back of the seat.
    You stepped forward—independent, proud,
    gauging your success by the lightness of my grip.

    You did it.
    You really rode.

    We ended on a good note.
    A sweaty one, too.
    The humidity tricked us—
    85 degrees in 67% humidity is no joke.

    But fifteen minutes?
    Fifteen minutes is enough.

  • Mom at Midnight: Raising Tiny Chaos Junkies

    Mom at Midnight: Raising Tiny Chaos Junkies

    June 10, 2025

    Author’s Note:
    This post is for every parent lying awake at midnight—brain fried, body done, heart full. It’s for the ones parenting through chaos, guilt, and grace, and finding the courage to stand up again tomorrow. You’re not alone.


    Body:

    This was my shirt. Eight years ago.

    Black T-shirt with white “Raising Tiny Disciples” lettering hanging on a hanger, representing a homemade HTV mom shirt from 2016.
    The original HTV shirt from the “Jesus & essential oils” era—eight years and three chaos junkies ago.

    A homemade HTV “Raising Tiny Disciples” shirt—peak “Jesus & essential oils” era.
    I’ll link a newer version of the DIY cutter I used back then (hello, Silhouette Cameo 2016).

    It boldly declared my mom mission: “Raising Tiny Disciples.”

    And to be fair, it wasn’t wrong… if we’re talking about the original twelve. You know, the ones B.C.—doubtful, chaotic, snack-seeking, and constantly questioning authority.

    If I could go back, I’d add some fine print:
    (…like the one B.C.)

    Because let’s be honest: my kids have the spiritual potential of Peter and the behavioral instincts of a gremlin on Red 40.

    It’s Monday night. Quiet—only because the chaos is finally unconscious.
    I’m lying in bed, tossing like a hooked trout. My body’s begging for sleep. My brain? She’s just now ready to solve world peace and cereal logistics.

    Sometimes I’m sharp when I need rest… and useless when I need function.
    I’ll lie awake planning tomorrow and then spend the

  • Karen Read Acquittal

    Karen Read Acquittal

    Karen Read Acquittal – A Court Reporter’s Perspective on Truth, Tone, and Reasonable Doubt

    Such a compelling case, indeed

    I watched the Karen Read docuseries. A friend asked me to weigh in—probably because I’m a court reporter, and I spend a lot of my life watching people under pressure, trying to lie, bluff, or convince. This one was hard to pin down. Some of it felt deeply compelling—like the part where she says she pulled a piece of glass out of his nose. But other parts didn’t quite make sense either.

    Here’s what I noticed.

    Usually, when someone’s done something as serious as killing another person, their calls afterward don’t feel real. Most of the time, you can hear the performance—the overly sweet voicemail, the fake calm. They try to sound clueless, loving, innocent. But the tone is wrong. You can feel it.

    Karen Read didn’t sound like that.

    She came across as full of passion—chaotic, raw, erratic even—but not calculated. I watched an interview that talked about how many times she called him after the incident. How much she screamed. And honestly, that kind of energy is highly unusual for someone trying to cover up a murder. The tone of her voice, the volume, the effort she poured into those voicemails? It wasn’t giving “clean getaway.” It was giving spiraling confusion. If she did hit him, I’m not entirely sure she knows that she did.

    Robert and I talked about it, and we both landed in the same place: even if there’s a chance she did it, this case was nowhere near beyond a reasonable doubt.

    And body language says a lot. Her tone, her physical responses—even the sheer number of calls she made before learning he was dead—all of it pointed to a kind of passion and denial that doesn’t align with guilt. If someone knows they’ve killed someone, they don’t call to scream at them. They usually call to pretend they didn’t have issues. They clean things up. They delete the evidence. They try to rewrite the narrative.

    Karen didn’t do any of that.

    She didn’t try to fix her broken taillight. She didn’t wipe off the hair found on the car. She didn’t act like someone with something to hide. And when she was giving her thoughts and opinions—on camera or in court—she consistently shook her head yes. That’s actually a well-known indicator of truthfulness. When people are lying, their body often betrays them. Take Scott Peterson or Chris Watts, for example. In their televised interviews, when asked if they knew where their wives were, they shook their heads no—while saying yes. Look it up. I noticed it years ago while watching their documentaries, and it stuck.

    That kind of stuff matters.

    And then there’s the other side. The lead detective in this case? He sent inappropriate, raunchy text messages and had personal ties to the family who owned the house where the victim died. The people inside that house the night it happened were all butt-dialing each other left and right—no one explaining why. And one of the men who was there took his phone and ran it over with a car. Who does that? Most people just trade their phones in or upgrade. I’ve never known anyone to destroy both their phone and their SIM card unless they’re trying to make sure nothing is left behind.

    Put all of that together, and the verdict makes sense.

    There may always be pieces we can’t explain. But guilt has a pattern, and so does innocence. And this case—despite its chaos—looked a lot more like the second.

  • Sanitized Stories – The Filtered Truth and Hypocrisy

    Sanitized Stories – The Filtered Truth and Hypocrisy

    June 19, 2025

    Filtered truth and hypocrisy don’t just distort the story—they erase the blood, rewrite the roles, and let the guilty pose as the blessed.

    It’s a strange thing—

    watching someone dust off a crown they stole

    and wear it like they earned it.

    They speak of blessings,

    post about timing,

    insinuate waiting,

    sell disaster as destiny

    and the wreckage as divine favor.

    But some of us remember the blood under the rug.

    Some of us read the fine print behind the fairytale—

    the late-night whispers,

    the door that never closed all the way,

    the home that cracked from the inside out

    a fracture in a place where family was,

    while someone else waited in the shadows

    already moving in.

    And now, they claim virtue.

    Now, they tell the story with the spotlight pointed just so.

    They forget the weeping.

    The trail of tears streaming down faces without a clue,

    They forget the one who begged for mercy

    while they rehearsed how to smile in pictures.

    Bought some shovels 

    and dug holes for the skeletons in the closet.

    But injustice doesn’t need a headline to be real.

    And hypocrisy doesn’t need to shout—

    it just needs a filter,

    a platform,

    and no one brave enough to remember out loud.